But I am glad to say I now realise it happened.
When I eat for hunger, the food does not sit in my stomach the way it does when I eat for my feelings.
Even when they overlap, meaning I am hungry but the food is serving my mind, not my stomach, the food still sits in my stomach.
I am trying not to eat emotionally. I only just realised, every time I was eating was only for my emotions. I forgot about the other things in life that can make us happy…
Cover of Laura Marling’s Pray For Me
The great-great-great grandchildren of Dickens take a selfie with him on his 202nd birthday.
Although the author himself hoped to avoid such commemoration, a statue of Charles Dickens was unveiled last week just in time for his 202nd birthday.
Motivation that comes from outside of you will not last. Every picture you see, all the words you hear. They are not efficient motivation.
When people told me how much weight I’d lost, I removed myself from it. I didn’t know why, but I’m glad I did. Because now I’ve gained a couple kilos, I don’t feel like I’ve let anyone down.
But I lost all that weight because of motivation that came from outside of me. Without the efficient mental work, I will not recover.
This body, is my body, it’s my business. Happiness begins on the inside, I finally know what that means.
Food does not make you fat. Eating disorders are not about food. Food cannot make you skinny. Diets are about food. Eating disorders happen in the head, not the body.
If your head decides how much you’re eating…
be it too much…
or too little…
then you are not eating eating what your body needs.
You’re eating what you think your body needs.
Which may be true sometimes.
But let’s give our bodies credit and at least them decide whether we need more or less food.
It’s been 9 weeks and a day since I saw her and my brother. They’re coming to visit me in March!! It’s only 47 days until I see them again!!
I thought it would be ages until I missed them. Well I don’t miss them that much actually. But I have certainly gained an appreciation for them, it will be so exiting to spend three and weeks together. I feel like I need to make up some bonding time after having such a rough time last year.